“I’ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who looked down on me, I’m tearing down your balcony.”
I am a huge fan of Eminem. I probably shouldn’t be. At least that’s what I have been told. His lyrics are offensive, he’s an angry guy, I should listen to more uplifting music. Music that inspires, music that I can play aloud and not worry about who might be listening.
And I agree that some of his lyrics are offensive, but when I take the time to hear the message behind the rough exterior I like what he has to say. I listen to his Recovery CD every day in my car. I have memorized the lyrics to several songs so I can sing along. (My kids are so proud).
Because this is the music I find inspiring, this is what works for me. It builds me up, gives me strength and makes me feel like I can handle anything. I find his words empowering.
But I still feel as though I shouldn’t listen to it. I still turn it down when I come into a parking lot or pass a construction zone and think that other people might actually hear the words that I am listening to in my car.
I have been taught to believe that as an older mom I am supposed to look and act a certain way, and that way doesn’t include Eminem. Where did I get my ideas of who I am supposed to be? And when did I accept this truth that someone else knows better than me who I should be?
I don’t want to be that person anymore. The person who is so concerned about what other people think of me that I can’t even play the music I like aloud. But I don’t know if I have the courage to be that person. I will need encouragement and inspiration, something to empower me and I know just where to go to find it…
“You can do anything you set your mind to, man”